gaddaammmmmm

oh my... my life sucks. the work sucks since target was increased, im still living with my husband eventho i dont luv him and he cant get that gaddam fact into his mind, i cant find inspiration to start the online biz again because i dont hv the gaddam fukking time. im smiling & pleasing everybody but my inside is hating all these. i am seriously frustrated with all these. sometimes i do feel like running away and excuse me not becoz i kene sihir or apa that got me feeling like det...it is real me...im tired of living a lie...i dreamt of a place far far away fr here. sometimes i feel god better take my life. as it became more meaningless day after day.  living to a dogma...boring, dull, mundane, blah, authorative. living in sins that uncontrollable. i am pretty sure i end up in hell if im continue living like this. adakah aku menganayai atau dianayai. good question for god to answer.